When one part wants to change and another does not

Some parts may long for more freedom, honesty or connection. Others may fear what could happen if you live differently. Setting a boundary could bring relief for some parts and fear of rejection for others. Asking for help might offer support while exposing needs that parts learned to hide.

These parts may all be trying to care for you, with different understandings of what will keep you safe or help you belong. We can listen to the hopes behind the wish for change and the concerns of the parts that fear it.

Sometimes the conflict looks like parts wanting a drink for relief while others worry about its effects. At other times, parts want to be patient with the children while overwhelmed parts shout and other parts feel guilty afterwards. If either feels familiar, there is more room to explore in the reflection on drinking or the reflection on parenting and overwhelm.

IFS offers a way to listen to the parts that fear change. What do they fear will happen? What do they hope their protection will make possible? What has the familiar pattern helped them manage, and what would they need us to understand?

A part that keeps you quiet may hope to preserve a relationship. A part that urges you to speak may hope that your needs will finally matter. We can hear the care in both intentions, alongside the impact of their actions. The wish for change and the fears around it can have space together.

Parts that take responsibility may carry beliefs such as “Everything depends on me”, “I must cope on my own” or “Needing care makes me weak”. In IFS, painful beliefs and feelings carried by parts can be understood as burdens. Some connect with our own experiences; others may be legacy burdens, shaped by family, culture or earlier generations.

Being strong, self-reliant or responsible for others may have mattered deeply in the circumstances these parts knew. There may have been little room to need support, or good reasons not to depend on anyone. Receiving care now can feel unfamiliar or unsafe for some parts, while other parts long for it. We can understand what the responsible parts have carried and what they fear might happen if they allowed someone else to help. If you would like to explore legacy burdens further →

Imagine being the person who remembers what needs doing, notices how everyone is feeling and steps in before anyone asks. Parts of you care deeply about others and value being able to help. Other parts long for someone to notice you and say, “Let me look after this. You do not have to hold it all.”

Then someone offers to make you a meal or organise something for you. A part feels relief, but before you can receive the offer, another says, “It is fine. I can do it.” You might find yourself helping them or making sure they are comfortable, until you are looking after the person who came to look after you.

The parts taking charge may fear that things will fall apart, that you will owe something in return, or that depending on someone will end in disappointment. They may hope to keep you capable, safe or free from the vulnerability of needing. Meanwhile, parts longing for care may feel lonely, overlooked or frustrated that there never seems to be room for them. Some may even feel worthless. Other parts may resent always being the helper, or feel angry when their advice is rejected. Those responses deserve attention too, with care for their impact on other people.

We can listen to both. What do the responsible parts fear would happen if someone else took care of things? What do they hope their efforts will protect? We can also ask the parts longing for care what would help them feel met. Perhaps they want someone to listen, offer practical help or notice without being asked. We can explore how to express those needs and what support the people around you are able and willing to offer.

Change might mean allowing a small offer of care, being clearer about what would help, or spending time with the parts for whom receiving still feels unsafe. The capacity to care for others can remain a gift, with more room for choice and for your own needs too.

In my own experience, a part of me believed she had to take care of others, especially husbands or husband figures. This was connected with a generational lineage of wives and women who were expected to look after men. The burden she carried said there would be no room and no use for them otherwise, that their sole purpose was to serve.

For this part, not serving did not feel safe. She carried fears of being beaten or thrown out. The message was, “I have no worth if I am not serving”, even if serving meant almost erasing herself: her own needs, wishes and sense of having a place.

Alongside this, there is a little girl within me who learned that depending on others, or needing them, could mean being let down or hurt. Parts of me became determined: “Never again will I let myself feel weak.” For those protective parts, being looked after could mean becoming vulnerable to hurt again. Other parts still longed for care.

For years, I was not aware of the legacy and cultural burden I was carrying. Other parts refused even to acknowledge that such beliefs could exist within me. When people spoke about women being paid less or not having equal rights, a part of me would flare up: “No, not me. I am just as strong. I get paid as much, even more.” Other parts worked endlessly to make sure I was never seen, or felt, as weaker.

Those parts were protecting something precious too. Yet their fight made it difficult to see the parts carrying the beliefs they so strongly rejected. Eventually, I could recognise what was happening within me: the parts that had learned to serve in order to survive, and the parts determined that I would never be made smaller or weaker.

When I could hold both with love and safety, there was room to release the burden carried through my lineage. The parts that had been fighting no longer had to work in the same way to keep it out of sight. There was more room for love and choice.

For me, that includes choosing how and whom I serve: myself, my inner system, my lineage, the world I love and the people within it. This care does not have to come at my expense, or at the expense of any of my parts. There can be love for them within it too. I can honour what the women before me were trying to survive, while allowing what no longer serves us to be released.

I have come to feel how love feeds love, and safety helps more safety become possible. The more I can meet my parts with love and safety, the safer it feels to open my heart. From there, I find more room to choose love. For some parts of me, loving had felt necessary to survive or earn a place. Now they can love without needing a reason and by choice, remembering they are made of love.

Other parts do not have to like a protective response before we can become curious about it. They may be angry, impatient or frightened by what it does. Those parts deserve care too. In IFS, Self offers a compassionate relationship with all our parts; we do not ask parts that feel differently to pretend.

Therapy can offer space for the parts that long to move forward and the parts that fear what change might bring. We can explore their hopes, fears and burdens at a pace that feels safe, with room for uncertainty and for what each part needs us to know.

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